Feelings of Dissatisfaction.

Just a little something that popped into my head while I was sitting on the couch waiting for my son to wake up..

Do you ever feel dissatisfied with life? Not that you’re ungrateful. Not that you’re above it all or that you deserve more. Just, hollow.  A restless feeling that settles into your stomach, your soul. A desire to create, to explore… to do nothing. Confused. Wondering… wandering. What is this feeling? This empty feeling that nothing in this life will ever be enough. Hollow soul. Wandering heart. Feeling this way makes me feel guilty. It makes me feel like something is wrong with me. Then I remember a quote I’ve read before by C.S. Lewis, 

“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” 

And another by J.R. Tolkien, 
“Not all who wander are lost.” 

And then I don’t feel so alone, and I can hold on to the hope that one day, I will be where I belong.

“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ,” Philippians 3:20

Thanks for stopping by! 
                    -Courtney

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